satu perubahan dalam hidup aku,

What a big surprise???!!! well, I'm speechless! Hey, want to say sorry!!! why? I didn't told you guys about all this thing! Huh, it hard for me to tell you all about this things! Huh, long story! Benda nie da lame da, memang nak bagitau korang semua tapi aku tak sanggup! Sorry la, tak saba nak jumpe korang...dan cite semua benda yang jadik kat aku! Inilah satu perubahan yang terbesar balam hidup aku, hidup aku bakal berubah! Dan tak seperti dulu kala, mungkin aku akan kurang lepak ngan korang! Huh, sedey nye! Benda nie aku cuba tuk biasa kan dengan diri aku sendiri! Aku tau, semua nie susah! Tapi apa-apa pown, ini semua untuk kebaikan kami! Rase bersyukur pown ade lah jugak!
Aku pown tak tau nak mula cite macam mane???!!! benda nie da lame da berlaku kat aku! Aku cume tak nak bagitau korang! Sorry! Semua nie berlaku sebelum PMR lagi! Wow, rase cepat masa berlalu! Aku just tak nak rumitkan lagi kepala otak aku! Haha, skang nie PMR da habis... tunggu masa je nak jumpe korang semua!! nampak nye, masa da tiba, kalau aku jumpe korang...memang aku nak cite pasal benda nie!
Huh, terimalah je lah apa yang berlaku kat aku, aku tau nie semua ujian Allah kat aku! Ape-ape pown aku kene banyak bersabar dan sentiasa berfikiran positif! Huh, memang agak susah aku nak terima semua benda nie!! tapi aku just lalui je lah hidupan aku ngan semua benda nie!!! aku tau aku kene tabah, huh, memang aku terima jelah apa yang sudah tertulis!
Aku tau ramai lagi manusia yang rasai apa yang aku rasa sekarang! Memang susah la hidup nie! Aku tak nak lah orang cakap benda buruk kat aku, kalau korang dalam keadaan aku skng nie, mesti korang faham! Aku harap korang boley terima aku seadanya!

this is hard for me,

this thing is totally hard for me, i'm sorry!!!
i try think positive!!

Mid Valley Megamall

haha, gi mid? ngan family, no need to talk much, just see the picture!

kerja gila,

huh, video ape tuh? lagu tuh, best, lame tak denga, dari tv kat bawah, bukak kuat2, hahha..

korang nie,

boring kan? duk rumah x buat ape-ape! huh, pagi-pagi, aku bangun, call syiqin,'' boring kan? jom weyh, kita gi umah qeela, lame x jumpe dye, kite gi ngan aeni!'' call aeni, ''jom aeni kite gi umah qeela, lame tak jumpe dye, naik kau lah! '' hmm, nak ajak miera skali, call miera,'' tut-tut-tut-tut'', tak da orang mau angkat! hehe, forget to call tuan rumah! call qeela,'' hello? qeela, nie pika, kau ade kat ne? ape? kat kampung? baru inagt nak gi ummah kau, nak jumpe kau, hahah, tak pe lah, lain kali je lah! bye,''
call aeni,'' bad news! aeni, qeela kat kampung, kita nak gi mane ha? ape gi umah syafiqa? okey, aku call dye'', call syafiqa'' hello, syafiqa, nak gi umah kau boley tak? boley, okey nanti kami sampai!'' call syiqin,'' kin kite gi umah syafiqa tau, ye, balik awal! '' huh, penat, call-call! hmm, okey la kami gi! sebelum tuh, dalam pukul 1.30, syqin call ''pika mak aku tak boley nak antar!! tak pe tak yah ikot!!!'' huh, gi ngan aeni je lah!
buat ape?
masak, kareoke, habis pecah rumah! makan, sambung balik karoke, naik moto, gi lombong, sampai lombong, amik gamba, ade orang tu call, hahha, gi kedai, beli air, lepak taman, huh, moto tayar pancit lah?!!! huh, tolak lak moto, berdua jew, aeni kat belang gelak giler nak mati!!! gelak jew kerja dia, bila sampai kat anjing, baru nak start moto dan pecut!!! huh, klakar lah!

when I'm started to cry,

i can remember when the last time I'm crying,
it is hard for me to stop crying,
really, sometimes when I'm think about it,
my tears all going down,
it is just like a waterfall coming down!
think about what?
just thinking about my late mom,
i just starting to miss her AGAIN!
it is hard for me to let this things go freely,
no, no, i know i can't!
i know, i miss you a lot!
my younger sister,
what can i do for her?
she just can't stop crying,
huh, we miss you a lot,
so damn a lot!!!
mama, we miss you a lot!

love?

Would you do anything for them?
i hope soo,
Have you cried because of them?
maybe, ya, ya!
Do you two talk about marriage?
huh, not yet! maybe someday?!
Are you in-love with him?
yes, totally!
Are he always on your mind?
always!
3 words that describe them are...
cute
tall
mine, :)
Do you lie to him/her?
lie? about what?
How many kids would you like to have with them?
wow, what a kind of question is that? maybe 4?
Are you number 1 on their top?
yeah!
On a scale 1-10 how glad are you that their yours?
10-10,
Do you get jealous?
yeah, sometimes!
Do you miss him/her?
totally! really!
Do they treat you good?
yeah! just the way he love me!
If they hung up on you would you call them back?
hehe, yes!
Would you apologize if they were mad at you & mean it?
always!
Do you hate to see them sad or mad?
mad? yeah, sometimes i donno why!
What would you give up for them?
ha?
Are they the most important thing to you?
yeah, can't live without you!
Can he make you smile no matter what?
yeah! <3
Does he make you happy?
yeah! always!
How happy?
so damn very happy! :)
Do you want to grow old with them?
wow, what a long trip?!
Do you get scared when they say..
i hate you! maybe?!
Do you kiss a lot?
no! :*
When do you want to have a family together?
wow, what a question?! no comment!
When do you want to live together?
yes!
Are you proud of him?
yes,
Would you protect him?
he protect me!
is he your one & only?
yes! totally!
Have you loved anyone else in your life more?
this is the first one!
Do love songs remind you of him?
yes! really do!
Do you like laying with them?
no!
What would you rather do.. Sex or just hold them?
wow, sex? too much!
What do they mean to you?
yes! da!
Are you addicted to him?
yes,
Would you kiss them in a crowd?
no,
Do you tell your friends how much you love him?
hahha,
What would you do to make him happy?
let me think! i don't have the answer!